I feel like I must either be (1) more discriminating in deciding how I allocate & spend my time than most, or perhaps just (2) more anxious/guarded about over commitment.
Making a new commitment, particularly ones which entail a recurring commitment of time & energy, is not a small thing to me; not a decision I can make in the moment or on the spot. I mean I have to really evaluate it, consider the tradeoffs.
Maybe I’m just generally more booked than others?; have less free time for allocation and thus am more jealous of any further slices I “give away?”
Or maybe I’m lazy, making myself feel better by ascribing too high a value to my free time & imagining I’m allocating a precious limited resource when I really just desire ample time to loaf?
Or maybe it’s some in-between. Whatever I do I like to do it well, so maybe I’m tempering my overall commitment to keep me level of engagement high quality?
Or maybe I’m selfish.
Regardless, I am judicious about allocating my time, and some of the allocations I enjoy most are the simplest: spending time at home with my family watching baseball and cooking or reading or working in the yard. Those things bring me consistent and abundant joy.
Yeah maybe I’m selfish.
Also written on this day...
- might just be because we're lucky - 2019
- if i ever get it by the collar - 2011
- everyone calls her mimi - 2010
- not some mistake - 2008
- keystone chops - 2007
- it all starts somewhere - 2006
- nervous laughter - 2005